This week I turned the dirty, dreaded, delightful, 30. Why do we put labels on these birthdays? To psych ourselves out? I have been putting the second D, “Dreaded” on my #30 since I can remember! But, this week I woke up with a whole different perspective. 30 will do that to you 😉
It all started when I was 12. I can’t remember what I was wearing, or where we were… I just VIVIDLY remember my mother. It was her 30th Birthday, and she was, (how do I put this nicely?) losing her marbles! 30 was the number she had been dreading and I remember sitting with her, mascara running down her face.. sobbing. As a pre-teen… THIS TERRIFIED ME! I thought… “30 seems like Forever away, I’ll be so ooooollllddd, I DON’T WANT TO BE OLD!”. Ever since that moment, I was setting myself up for inevitable doom.
Fast forward 13 years. I was turning 25! This was the peak for me. I had always had the goal of “by 25 I want to be married and have my first kid”, and I achieved that (Barely). But I kept thinking I only have 5 more years until I turn 30! OH NOOOOO!!! Does this mean that my boobs will sag and I will be a gray- haired crank monster? From that day on, for the next 4 birthday’s I had that lingering DOOM.
So here we are. This week I woke up to 18 years of dreaded doom. I may have a few aches in the bones sometimes, and my boobs.. well… let’s just say they hang where they should after nursing 2 babies. haha! BUT to my surprise, I don’t magically have a head full of grey hairs, and I don’t have a huge neon sign on my forehead that says, “THIS OLD BAG IS 30!”
Gray hair is a crown of glory; it is gained in a righteous life.
Proverbs 16:31 ESV
Instead, I woke up to my amazing husband, who may or may not have gave me a bum grab first thing, and two perfect kiddos rushing in to say “-APPY BIRFDAY MOMMMMMMYYYYY!”. AND the best part of waking up was I realized that the truth is, I am TRULY happy with where my life is right now! So I decided to challenge myself to remember and celebrate the Blessings that I have had in the last 30 years! Continue reading →